1/16/2012
HEALED!
Heyya fellas.
I'm so much sorry for the late posting and the lame blog. So many things need to be handled and I only get 24 hrs in a day. Well this time, lemme tell you how lucky we are for having things that may seem so usual in our daily live.
My school has a tight grip to a tight schedule. We're seven-to-five people, starting the class from 7 am in the morning and ending it at 5 pm. In addition to my busy day, I have to take care for the home since the house keeper had been dismissed. So you can assume when I get home at five, I should check my sister, whether she's in the course or just playing with some kids in our neighborhood. The other thing is about the food. I am no good at cooking, but as time goes by, and my daily life indirectly makes me to cook by myself, so I can finally cook some menu(s). I just need to serve the meal at night, since my sister spends her day mostly at school, just like me.
What I'm trying to tell you here is, there are always hands to help me. My house is more than 15 km far from my school and it takes more than 4o minutes to get there. You may think it is so boring for sitting in the bus for more than 3o minutes, but in fact I found so many interesting lessons everyday from another passengers in my bus. One of the unforgettable stories is when I almost missed the bus when it went faster and thought I would take another bus. But it wasn't that easy, it took 15 minutes more to get another bus and I was desperate. I was clearly sure that I would miss the practical class. But my friends, miracle happened! I guess it was 3 minutes from the time I tried to catch my bus, and it went back! When I got into the bus, I asked the driver, "why do you turn back?" and he replied, "well,the old lady over there(and pointing an old lady in the corner of the bus) told me that you called the bus for more than three times and I couldn't here that. So, why wouldn't I let you get in?" Really, I was really touched and the next thing I found was she smiled at me. "Thank you," I said. I just can't remember how many times a moment like this happen every time I catch the bus and it always make me on time. It may seem so meaningless, but for me, it helps!
One lesson I've learnt is when God puts you in a situation you don't like, He never forgets to put people you'll like.
The second thing I just recalled from my memory is how God put so many blessed people in my life. Since Regina and I are in different classes, we don't see much often like we did in high school. I'm a quite friendly person, but I never think that He will give me so many friends just in hours. My classmates are awesome, they're funny yet smart! One of my best friend is really amazing. She never chooses with anywho she'll make friends with and I learn so many things from her attitude. Racism is an old issue. I promise myself not to make too big boundaries in making friends with people.
The third thing I would like to thank God is my family. My family is very supportive. Though we are separated by distance, calls and emails have tighten our family hood. And I think my older sister is cool! I never think she is that cool, until we talk, laugh and spend some times together. I used to have a fight with her, but now that both of us have finally grown up, we'd rather talk things we don't get. Again, this may seem nothing, but for me, since my mom passed away, people keep talking that my family is no longer that close because mother is just like a bridge for everyone in the family. Indeed, my dad keeps calling us and we get closer. He's so funny and his jokes always make my day
Did I tell you about my lil' sister? Well yeah, she's being a good girl too. Her grades may not be that excellent, but the way she behave every day really impresses me. She's acting just like a "little woman". Young, yet wise. She did the simple house work, like doing the dishes by herself. She becomes more disciplined in school. I keep telling my sisters that three of us are actually the Indonesian version of "little women",LOL!
I've finally realized that God give you so many blessings when you do your part heartily.
Thank You God for loving me so much more than I deserveLabels: random
12:03 AM 0 comments 
10/08/2011
I'm Recently..
Thank you for keeping in touch with my blog while I was away.
Okay,so this post is actually about my life at college. Things change rapidly and sometimes I still find difficulty in positioning myself.
Here we go,buddies!
Attending medical school multiplies your burden. Really. The lecture, the practice, the assignments, the bla-bla...
Self-study is the most important key to success here. Since I attended private schools which direct the students what to do, it's a lil' bit harder for me to change the way I study. The bad news is I finally realize what people said about the negative of private school;spoon-feed.
So here's the deal, I have to catch up the assignments and keep my eyes opened while lecture's being delivered. I finally make a simple research making my own self as the sample, with the title "What Makes You Sleepy During The Lecture".
And my hypothesis is about nutrition, sleeping habit, and self motivation.
Yes,I skip breakfast a lot.
Second thing I have to deal with is the book which are so thick.
You have to carry 2 kg weight books on your bag. I've been planning to use a hand bag like other uni students on tv, but apparently, it won't never happen to me.
So, see ya on my next post :)
Labels: University Life
10:07 PM 0 comments
8/26/2011
My Life After 3 Years Passed
Heyya,folks!
It's 2 a.m. in the morning and I'm still up.
Yeah,since I got nothing to do during my holiday so I just end up in front of computer, browse funny tweets, dig a facebook group of my new campus and eat a lot.
Gee,I think I've gained too many pounds!
Okay, ehm *back to normal voice*
So, let's have a flashback about my wishlist I created 2 years ago. Sounds stupid, but really, I just read this left blog and found that I was more cheerful and talkative than I am. I also found some broken promises I made, and my not-so-getting-rid-of-him.
1) I've been so many times to Parapat and it's like my second journey every time my family trip get bored.
2)I LIVE AT MY OWN HOME. I don't go to a dormitory or rent a room. I go to USU which is still located in Medan. Though I hate being told as 'daddy's girl' cause I ain't going abroad to continue my study, I have my own reason to stay here. You gotta stay on my blog if you want to know why!!
3)I don't eat martabak as often as before. My dad moved to a small city named Sibolga. And I have no one to eat martabak with :'( I just miss 'those days' when we took a walk just to see if there's a new martabak spot around the city.
4) I still love my blanket. And I will always do.
5)I still and do like reading a lot to gain new experience through people's thoughts. I'm currently reading reader's digest asia. My upcoming suggested book is Sense and Sensibility by Jane Austen. I've finished reading Mitch Albom's books: For One More Day, The Five People You Meet in Heaven, Tuesdays With Morrie, and Have A Little Faith. He's such an extraordinary writer!
6)I got some A(s) at school and it got better until I graduated from high school.
7)My TOEFL score is more than 530 and I'm planning to retake the test or take IELTS class.
8)I DON'T go to Medical School University of Indonesia. I didn't even choose it.I chose another major in the test. Instead, I'm accepted in some majors, like: Faculty of Engineering University of Indonesia, Faculty of Engineering Diponegoro University, Medical School Univeristy of North Sumatera (USU) and Law Faculty at President University.
My choice on USU mostly firstly concerns about my family. What if I move? Who will take care of my lil' sister? People will easily suggest my dad to remarry. In another side, my major in USU is really into me and the best one, of course. So why not?
Life taught me grumbling wouldn't make anything better. So,you'd better hold your head up and look straight to the future.
There are some things that can't be replaced and that's the way they are.
I'm on the right track, baby!
Labels: Family, Feeling Blue, Life's a challenging, Life's just begun, New Life, thank you, this is gonna be awful
12:37 PM 5 comments
8/25/2011
My Coming Back To Blogger
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Heyya! Helena's in town! Beware!
Rawwwrr!
I am SICK OF TUMBLR!
Labels: this is gonna be awful
9:28 AM 0 comments
7/06/2010
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Tuhan, bukan karena aku tidak mau diberikan tanggung jawab ini. Sungguh Tuhan, aku sungguh
bersyukur karena Engkau sudah mempercayakan perkara ini padaku. Tapi Tuhan, kalau boleh aku jujur, aku tidak tahan dengan semua ini. Aku sering bertanya pada diriku sendiri, "pantaskah aku mengeluh?" Kadang hanya itu saja yang berputar-putar di pikiranku. Tuhan, bukan karena aku tidak mau diberikan tanggung jawab ini, tapi karena aku takut aku tidak bisa. Jujur Tuhan, aku takut. Benar-benar takut, apalagi dengan mereka yang selalu siap menghadang jalanku.
Aku takut Tuhan. Benar-benar takut, maka dalam ketakutanku aku berdoa.
Tuhan,kalau boleh aku memilih, mungkin aku akan memilih tidak seperti ini. Aku cuma lelah ditempah dengan jalan kehidupanku. Aku cuma kadang-kadang begitu takut, dan memilih bersembunyi. Tuhan, kadang aku pesimis. Aku takut aku tidak bisa seperti mereka. Mereka yang sudah berlari di lintasan mereka dan menyelesaikannya dengan menjadi pemenang. Ditambah lagi dengan ketakutanku pada mereka, yang menentang kami. Mereka yang selalu menganggap kalau begitulah jalan terbaik.
Kadang aku lelah,Tuhan. Aku lelah menunggu jawaban doaku. Aku lelah menunggu kapan Engkau akan membukakan pintu hati mereka. Kadang aku bingung,harus kemana lagi aku pergi kalau tidak kepadaMu.
Tuhan, kalau aku terlalu banyak mengeluh, maafkan aku. Aku memang kurang bersyukur untuk hidup ini. Tapi Tuhan, kalau aku melihat ke atas, aku melihat teman-teman yang seperjalan berlari tanpa ada halangan yang berarti.
Sering aku mengeluh. Aku bahkan jadi sering bertanya-tanya apakah ini caraMu membentuk diriku? Membentuk diriku supaya lebih kuat?
Tuhan, sekali lagi aku minta maaf kalau aku terlalu pragmatis dalam melihat kehidupan ini. Aku cuma anak 16 tahun, bukan seorang 61 tahun. Aku masih kekanak-kanakan, caraku memandang kehidupan tidaklah sama dengan orang dewasa.
Tuhan, kalau aku melihat ke belakang, serasa aku ingin hidup lagi di masa itu. Masa-masa dimana aku mampu dan mantap. Tapi sekarang, aku merasa aku tak seperti dulu.
Tolong sampaikan pesanku untuk orang-orang yang kusayangi, untuk dia yang kujanjikan kalau aku akan tetap berlari dalam lintasanku dan mengakhiri semua ini dengan menjadi pemenang. Katakan padanya kalau aku akan berusaha demi dia. Aku berusaha untuk tidak menyerah.
Dan sekali lagi maaf, kalau aku terlalu banyak mengeluh dan jarang bersyukur.
I surrender everything to your hand, God.Labels: Talk To God
2:24 AM 3 comments
6/22/2010
Revolution
Hey,how's life fellas?
What do you have in mind about this holiday? Do you spend your holiday by traveling abroad or paying your relatives some visits?
Well,actually I just want to congratulate you all on your spending your holiday greatly. I spend my holiday at home. Since we have to bound our outcome. My sister finally goes to university, and it takes a lot of money to send her there. Actually for some people,it's not, since she's passed it through UMB. But still,we need money.
Anyway, we just tried to tidy up our room. She and I put some unused stuffs out of our room. I found some 'old' stuff which remind me of my past. Yeahh,time goes so fast.
Since I have nothing to share, let's talk about some 'old' stuffs that have been replaced by the new ones.
What are they?
1. walkman into mp3 playerWell,I still remember borrowing my sister's walkman. If you run out of battery,it sounds like old man with broken voice singing. It's terrible and horrifying .
Lol~!
Then, it's changed by mp3 player which mostly not uses battery anymore. It's simpler.
I just have to charge my iPod if it runs out of battery. At least, it's easy and simple.
2. analog camera into digital camera.I'm pretty sure that most of us still remember the time when we hide from sunshine while taking pictures by analog camera. It can burn our photos which will be appeared bad. And I'm sure none of us would spend money without getting a good quality thing in return.
A few years later,it's replaced by digital camera. You don't like your photos? Just delete 'em! It's easy.
3. Greeting cards into smsI don't have to put some pictures here since I believe you can easily imagine how greeting card is totally replaced by sms. I've never received any card for the last two years. I just received some sms.
Many things have changed rapidly, right?Time goes so fast that you can't catch. Live your life to the best!Labels: Family, holiday, this is gonna be awful
6:36 AM 4 comments
6/08/2010
Finally!
God, I just want to thank You for Your beautiful plans for my family.
I know these days are hard for us, but You still walk with us through it all.
And I just want to thank You for Your plans in my sister's life, Monica's life, so she passed the University of Indonesia entrance test and attended Faculty of Law.
CONGRATS YA,SISTER!
Mudah-mudahan tahun depan aku nyusul ke UI, ke Salemba
*Amin*
Ayo berusaha! :)
terima kasih Yesus,Kau dengar doa kami :)Labels: Faith, Family, Life's a challenging, Life's just begun
5:48 AM 4 comments
